It's been a while since I actually posted a journal on dA and I guess that's mostly due to me shifting most of my online shenanigans over to Tumblr, but I figure I owe you guys an explanation - just in case there's anyone still wondering. Which seems unlikely given how long I've been a deviant hermit, but life is full of wonders!!!!!!
The main thing I've been doing is rewriting my CV. Over and over. And over.
For those of you who are American, CV stands for Curriculum Vitae, and it's basically your resumé. I have virtually nothing to put on mine, and trying to make it look like you're an accomplished, employable person is like pulling teeth when you have put next to no effort into anything important in your life and simultaneously have no idea how jobs are supposed to function. And then, upon completing a version of my CV that sort of didn't look like I was a useless cock, I began the jobhunt. It's still ongoing. Mainly because there's nothing on the market, and partly because I'm the procrastinator to end all procrastinators. But I digress.
Other things I've been doing include hanging out on Dreamwidth roleplaying as fictional characters and drawing some stuff. Not as much as I used to, mind you. Just enough to be able to say I've improved a little. I've had a little sort of unwritten bet with myself for a long time, to see how long I could go without deleting my old artwork. After this long, I think it's safe to say this deviantART account will be my archive. I've burned or lost most of the stuff from when I was 13. It's kind of nice to be able to look back and say, "I was this bad once. I'm better now."
Sadly the same cannot be said for anything other than my art. Or, maybe, my personality. I like to think I've matured a bit. I'm less of a twat now. More laid-back, less of an attention skank, still pretty fuck-you-I'm-hilarious but in a way that doesn't make everyone else feel quite as awkward (hopefully. touch wood.) and it's been a pretty wild ride. I won't bore you with the details, and you can either believe it's because they were boring or because they were so interesting they'd blow your mind, but the reality is that I've forgotten most of them because I have a memory like a sieve. What I do remember is that I used to be an annoying little twat, and I feel like I'm less of one now. Hooray for that.
As far as my emotional status goes, I've gone through some stuff. Again, not going to recount most of it. I tried the relationship thing, it didn't work out, lost a friend or two, gained some others, being flat broke and time spent jobhunting is getting me down but I figure that's something I just have to work on - and I've been drinking a lot of tea. That's still a thing I do. I also still have a cat, and still enjoy chocolate in large quantities. So I've changed a bit - maybe a lot, depending on your perspective - but I'm still me. Just a little more subdued.
These days I like Homestuck and old movies and nights out and Supernatural and I'm tentatively getting into tabletop roleplaying and due to a run-in with Aquaman (who is rad by the way, the internet is wrong) DC comics too. I didn't really see that last one coming either.
i also type like this a lot and cant be bothered with punctuation in private chats so dont be surprised if im annoying to read when we talk. ill be trying to remember to type properly in my journals. u guys are hella privileged
I have Skype and AIM and sometimes I'm online on Google+ but I don't really know how to use it. Feel free to ask me for any of them if you think we'll be talking a lot. I'm trying to cut down on my crazy contact list habit. I'm also trying to cut my not-talking-to-people-first habit, but I'm still not really proactive. I tend to occupy myself a lot. Human interaction is pretty low on the to-do list.
I should spend more time on here. I might, or I might not. We'll see.
So there we go. Life update complete. Level up, or whatever you like to say about this sort of thing.